No More Veganism

This has been a very eventful week regarding my health.

HYPOTHYROIDISM
The tempest began with a visit to my favorite endocrinologist who told me my thyroid has more or less failed and therefore prescribed a daily dose of thyroid hormone to take orally every morning. We guessed on the dosage, she said she could start me super low (.25) but was pretty sure I'd eventually need more (.5 or .75). I told her she might as well give me the bigger dose already (bigger relatively, some people take up to 3mg I think) and so I've started on .5mg of Levothyroxine every morning. As she suspected taking this pill had pretty visible affects in my energy and mood. I found myself able to survive a whole day of rehearsals and shows without the usual moodiness, at least for the first day or two. By the third day, however, I found myself feeling a bit dodgy again. I'd find myself getting lightheaded whenever I stood up too fast, my muscles felt achy just from climbing stairs, I felt weak and then late at night I started feeling very nauseous, which is a sign of...

ADDISON'S DISEASE
My endocrinologist warned me that taking the thyroid pill, though necessary, may speed up the progression of the Addison's disease which has been present in each of the blood tests I've done over the last several months. Up until now, however, my adrenal function has remained fairly normal considering the insane amount of antibodies present in my blood. But inexplicable nausea (especially considering my blood sugar was fine) was a big red flag for me. She said if I experienced any such symptoms to immediately take an oral hydrocortisone pill. I did, and almost immediately my nausea went away and my energy returned in force (along with an abundantly good mood I left somewhere in last September).

 (did you know that when you have both Hashimoto Thyroiditis and Addison's disease it's called Schmidt syndrome?)

What does this have to do with veganism???

Well, to quote wikipedia:

"To form cortisol, the adrenal gland requires cholesterol."  

Cholesterol comes from animal products. My adrenal gland isn't dead, it's just not working very well, and I'm not helping it by starving it to death.

"You need to start eating meat again."
"Okay."

So my 40 or so days of veganism has come to an end. I've had fish thrice, yogurt twice, and a half a chicken since the appointment (the chicken made me a bit ill). I won't forget what I learned though... although I may save it for another post.

The past few days:

April 10, 2012 - First day of Thyroid pills
9:30 -> 142 Way to f***ing high! Took 2P and 2N w/cereal 140c, chips 10c, banana 27c. Took thyroid pill at 1:00. At 3:00 had Larabar 26c.
4:34 -> 108 Had apple then went on 2 mile run (knee hurt) then took 4P w/ CHIPOTLE burrito bowl 110c.
6:54 -> 112 This is good! It means the Prandin is still doing something despite my C-Peptite being at an all time low of .48 during my most recent blood test. At 8:30 had grapefruit 25c and peanuts 5c.
10:55 -> 66 Took 1P and 2N w/greens 18c, squash 30c, salad 30c, yams 90c and Juice 24c.
3:42 -> 186 Poor planning of my meal, I drank the juice because I felt low because the yams hadn't finished cooking yet. Took 5L.

April 11, 2012
11:06 -> 100 Better. Took 2P and 1N w/cereal 140c, pb toast 19c.
4:52 -> 63 Took 4P w/ Black Eyed Peas and kale 180c, then apple 18c, kiwi 10c, pumpkin seeds and peanuts 8c. At 9:30 had apple 18c.
12:25 -> 63 Took 3N w/salad 30c, squash 40c, yams 60c, carrots 30c, potato 40c and just about exploded from a stupid amount of starchy foods.
4:00 -> 140 Took 5L.

April 12, 2012 - First day of Hydrocortizone
10:37 -> 95 Took 2P and 1N w/cereal 140c, apple 18c. At 2:30 had Larabar 331c and grapefruit 24c.
5:17 -> 70 Took 3P w/brussels sprouts 18c, rice 40c, fish, apple 18c, peanuts and pumpkin seeds 10c, apple 18c and kiwi 20c.
12:15 -> 89 Feel weak and nauseous, took a hydrocortizone and 2N w/dumplings 100c, b sprouts 25c and salad 20c.
5:45 -> 102 (don't judge me) Took 5L w/carrot 8c.

April 13, 2012
12:35 -> 98 Good, consistent. One more # like this and I'll go up to 6L at night. Took 2P w/cereal 130c, then apple 18c then kiwi 10c.
4:55 -> 72 Took 1P w/PUR-BIRD 1/2 chicken 5c and roasted cauliflower 15c, pb and banana 58c and two homemade gluten free bacon bourbon chocolate chip cookies 37c.
12:25 -> 89 Took 1P and 1N w/ indian veg 20c, quinoa 60c and kale 6c.
2:25 -> 114 Pretty dang good, had a carrot 8c and took 5L.

Day 115

The Honeymoon is Over?

When I was first diagnosed in December of 2011, I was warned that I would, for the next few weeks or months (or even a year) experience what is commonly called the "honeymoon period." This is a time before T cells have destroyed all insulin producing pancreatic tissue and so your sugar highs and lows, spikes and drops have a buffer zone produced by your failing organ. I was warned, I was. And yet when I experienced some early success with some dietary alterations and regular exercise regimens I allowed my budding hope to harvest within me, dreaming of some diabetic fairytale where I use positivity and vegetables to send this life long auto-immune disease into remission. I was even off the insulin for a little over a week!

But the time bomb that was my flailing pancreas kept ticking towards an inevitable downfall. And though there is still some trace of function in my pancreas I've been increasing insulin dosage almost daily for the past week.

So here are a lot of numbers since I went MIA. Pay careful attention to the meds/insulin I take and watch as they increase:

March 30, 2012
12:00 -> 98 Still too high for the morning. Took 2P w/ cereal 120c, orange 15c, 1/2 banana 12c, peanuts 4c.
4:52 -> 111 Took 3P w/ pb and 1/2 banana 43c, pea soup 100c, pepper 8c, grapefruit 24c, apple 25c, pumpkin seeds 7c.
11:56 -> 71 Took 2P w/ salad 40c and took 1 unit of Novolog w/ 2 yams 55c, tortilla chips 20c, brussels sprouts and fennel 45c.
2:42 -> 127 Took 4 units Lantus w/ 2 cookies 19c.

March 31, 2012
11:09 -> 86 Good, 80s! Took 2P w/cereal 120c, apple 35c. At 3:30 had 2 oranges 32c and pumpkin seeds 6c.
5:27 -> 64 Low Took 3P w/ Whole Foods: sprouts 4c, cauliflower 5c, beans 100c, potatoes 30c, mango 30c, rice 25c, seaweed 5c = 200c + cookes 26c, fake coffee 4c, grapefruit 25c, more pumpkin seeds 6c.
12:04 -> 59 Tortilla chips 10c then 2P w/salad 45c and yams 70c.
2:38 -> 157 That's exactly where I want to be. Took 4 units Lantus.


April 1, 2012
10:37 -> 84 Great! Took 2P w/cereal 120c, 4 mile run, apple 35c, pb toast 16c, cake 40c, orange 15c.
6:50 -> 80 Took 2P w/SOU-EN ramen 55c and cornbread 50c and 1/2 SUN IN BLOOM cookie sandwich 40c, chips and hummus 10c, strawberries 27c, fries 5c, 2 shots of Fernet Branca.
2:31 -> 58 Larabar 31c, 1 Prandin w/salad 50c.
4:06 -> 83 Took 4 units Lantus w/ pb banana 50c.

April 2, 2012
10:53 -> 113 High, the alcohol processes slowly, and the 4am sandwich was too much. Took 2 P w/cereal 120c, apple 40c, Larabar 27c.
8:43 -> 70 Took 2P w/16 oysters, 3 oz salmon, potatoes 100c, spinach 14c, salad 7c, tomatoes 8c, asparagus 4c, 1 glass of wine.
1:04 -> 150 Took 4 units of Lantus.

April 3, 2012
10:33 -> 96 Higher than I'd like. Took 2P w/cereal 120c.
2:19 -> 164 No good! Took 2P AND injected 2 units of Novolog w/quinoa 60c, chickpeas 35c, grapefruit 25c, squash and cabbage 50c, sweet potatoes 40c, seaweed 5c, cookie 9c.
4:35 -> 41 Woops, overdid the meds. Had 2 bananas 60c, cookies 20c, pumpkin seeds 5c, bread w/hummus 18c and orange 17c.
10:54 -> 111 Took 2P w/salad 45c, greens 5c, 2 kiwis 20c, apple 20c.
2:37 -> 167 Took 4 units of Lantus.

April 4, 2012
10:39 -> 111 Too high for fasting level. Took 2P and 1N w/cereal 120c, grapefruit 24c, apple 18c, pb bread 22c, kiwi 10c.
4:41 -> 105 Not bad. Took 3P w/salad 40c and soup 40c, apple 20c, pb banana 58c.
7:41 -> 113 A tad low for Pre-Joey. Had grape leaves 47c. At intermission had kiwi 10c and pumpkin seeds 5c.
11:52 -> 132 Overdid it earlier I guess. Took 1P and 2N w/(rice 105c, beans 67c, chorizo 13c, salsa 10c, avocado 15c, fake cheese 2c, kale 5c) x 2/3 =140c + salad 25c, chips 15c, more kale 10c.
2:36 -> 96 Had grapefruit 24c with 4L.

April 5, 2012
11:04 -> 65 A little low. Took 2P and 1N w/cereal 125c, apple 18c, apple 18c, kiwi 10c, grapefruit 24c, pumpkin seeds 4c, Larabar 31c.
5:00 -> 95 Apple 25c, 6.2 mile run (46 minutes) Gu 25c.
6:49 -> 94 Nice! Took 2P w/yams 50c, cabbage and squash 60c, pb and j 38c, 2 kiwis 20c, pumpkin seeds 5c. At intermission had a grapefruit 25c.
1:00 -> 83 Took 1P and 2N w/spring roll 20c, Momma made casserole 200c.
3:26 -> 187 Took 4L

April 6, 2012
11:44 -> 61 One more low day and I'm going to decrease the Lantus. Took 2P w/cereal 110c, apple 25c, Larabar 27c.
5:24 -> 95 Took 3P w/SOUEN rice 45c and pesto veg 30C, dessert 45c, apple 38c, p seeds/hummus/peanuts 12c. At intermission pb and j 38c.
11:58 -> 93 Took 1P and 2N w/salad 52c, casserol 150c.
2:30 -> 85 Had 2 kiwis 20c, soy ice cream 20c and 4L.

April 7, 2012
10:51 -> 88 Good! Took 3P w/cereal 125c, apple 30c, grapefruit 24c, pumpkin seeds 4c.
4:52 -> 91 Took 2P w/rice 70c, beans 25c, fake cheese 2c, salad 40c, apple 18c, potatoes 60c, salad 10c, horoset 45c.
7:46 -> 140 Good Pre-Joey number. At intermission had pb and j 38c.
11:52 -> 136 Had 1P and 1N w/ brussel sprouts 18c, lentil soup 38c, pepper 6c, fennel 14c.
2:44 -> 106 Took 4 units with Lantus w/ mango piece 10c.

April 8, 2012
12:05 -> 108 Too high again. Took 2P and 1N w/cereal 130c, grapefruit 25c, gluten free muffin 35c, apple 35c.
6:51 -> 66 Not bad, took 3P w/ MAOZ falafel salad 225c, chips and macaroon 20c.
12:02 -> 136 Took 2P and 1N w/salad 30c, apple 40c, 2 kiwis 20c, green beans 8c = 98c.
2:38 -> 156 Woah, why so high? That's a big number after 2P and 1N. Took 4L.

April 9, 2012
10:56 -> 101 Too dang high! Tonight I take 5L. Took 2P and 2N w/cereal 140c, 2 apples 36c, Larabar 31c.
5:59 -> 55 Cookie 9c, coconut juice 16c, collard greens 18c. Then took 1P and 3N w/kurobata squash 45c, roast carrots 70c, potatoes 50c, Black Eyed Peas 45c.
8:42 -> 52 Corrected with a cookie 9c, black eyed peas 20c and an apple 18c.
11:29 -> 195 Over-corrected much? Ugh! Took 2P and 2N w/brussel sprouts 18c, BEPs w/kale 80c, 2 pieces of toast 60c.
2:07 -> 117 I'm appreciative of this good number. I'll have a kiwi 10c and then take 5 units Lantus. I should be fine with that since I haven't been active all day.

So over the time I'm showing you I've gone from 5 units of insulin per day to 11 units per day, and my Prandin dosage has stayed about the same. I've had 2 highs and 7 lows. When the diabetes progresses I always jump to errors I might have made first. Is it that I've become lax with the veganism? Is it that I don't workout daily but instead to huge cardio workouts once or twice a week? Am I getting lazy with my carb counting? Or...

...is the Honeymoon coming to an end?

Tomorrow I see Dr. Thys. I have some questions for her.

Day 111

100 Days of Diabetes!

In honor of my 100th day with diabetes I wanted to share the story of another man to whom the number 100 is quite important:

100 Things

Here's a short description of who he is and what he's doing taken from his website:

"Everyone has at least one thing they have to do before they die. Some even have a list. But how many goals and dreams on this list are actually achieved?

In 2009, at the ripe-old age of 27, Sebastian realized that like most people, he has not achieved anything on his long-forgotten list.?? The death of a close friend combined with a naturally abstract view on life sparks a moment of clarity. In the midst of overseas trip, Sebastian decides to put pen to paper and re-create a list of 100 Things. His goal, to tick off everything. It’s the start of a crazy, no holds barred adventure that sees Sebastian travel to the ends of the earth on a quest to prove that anything is possible, including true fulfillment.

Along the way, Sebastian strives to raise $100,000 for Camp Quality (Item # 4), a great organization creating happiness for children and families affected by cancer."

I am truly inspired by this man's commitment to really living fully. And he asks a great question: What's your 100 list consist of?

Dailies:

12:28 -> 107 Took 2 Prandin and 1 unit of Novolog (because my number was over 100) w/cereal 120c, pb and banana 47c, apple 20c, apple 25c. Ran 6.5 miles!!
5:52 -> 58 Low because of the run. Took 3 P w/pea soup 100c, salad 30c, grapefruit 24c, orange 18c, apple 18c, 2 cookies 35c, Larabar 31c.
11:42 -> 70 Had Larabar 31c, potato wedge 9c.
4:19 -> 99 Took 3 units Lantus and had apple 25c.

Day 100

Blue Zones

If you ever catch me talking about what started me down my exploration of wellness then you've probably heard about the Blue Zones. I started working out around the age of 15 when I discovered crew. But it wasn't until five years later when I learned about the other aspects of wellness. You see, the recipe for living forever isn't just eating right and exercise. It's more comprehensive than that, it encompasses your entire lifestyle and includes things you may not expect. But don't take my word from it. These lessons were learned from centenarians around the world.

The idea of "Blue Zones" started when National Geographic writer Dan Buetner decided to write an article about a region of Sardinia with unnaturally high occurrences of longevity. After going there he was overwhelmed by just how true this claim was. Not only were people living longer, but they were living healthier. Many of the people he witnessed showed the mental and physical capacity of people 20 years their junior. After the article was published more and more of these "Blue Zones" (areas he circled on a map with a blue pen... the name stuck) started popping up. One in Okinawa, Japan; one in Ikaria, Greece; Another in Costa Rica; One surprisingly in Loma Linda, California.

I followed his progress and was equally awestruck. It changed the way i thought about health and wellness, and made me reexamine my life goals.

Since then I've wandered away from the study, found other books, discovered new philosophies, listened to people, experts, friends, etc. Then Diabetes and the rest hit me and I've been a bit lost in the midst of it all. But over dinner the other night the topic came up and I was happy to share what I remembered of this study. I wanted a visual example and went online to show the videos of their progress in Greece and found...

... there were now videos documenting some of their research in Japan and Costa Rica too!! I'll give you one guess how I spent the next hour. Just seeing the vitality in those centenarians thrills me to no end. I hope that others are as affected as I am by this fascinating exploration of lifestyle.

Dailies:

10:43 -> 78 Took 2 Prandin w/cereal 120c, apple 15c, pumpkin seeds 4c, cookie 18c.
1:54 -> 210 Too high... may be time to get back on Novolog. The Prandin just isn't working fast enough to avoid these highs. Had an orange 14c at 3:20.
4:53 -> 67 Well, at least it works. Took 3 P w/black eyed peas 115c, salad 30c, apple 23c, orange 14c, grapefruit 25c. At 9:30 had cookie 18c. At 11:30 had a glass of white wine.
12:56 -> 73 Had 1 Prandin with brussel sprouts 20c, chips w/salsa 20c, apple sauce 10c, and yellow pepper 7c.
3:03 -> 108 Took 3 units of Lantus with a piece of toast w/pb 15c.

Tomorrow I get more blood work done. If the C Peptide is lower I'll go back to insulin. If the Thyroid hormone is lower I'll start taking supplemental hormones. Either way knowledge is the path to balance.

Day 99

Running and Smiling

Anybody who's read Born to Run may remember an interesting study done which demonstrated a link between the speed and cardiovascular capacity of a runner and his/her emotional state. In other words you can run faster and longer when you're happy. Surprised? I probably was a bit myself the first time I came across this info. But you shouldn't be. In fact, nothing makes better sense. Time flies (and so do you!) when you're having fun. Everything becomes better when you're in a positive state of mind. Happy children learn more in school. Happy people live longer. Happy athletes perform better.

So I woke up today and knew that part of the slump I had been in for a few days was caused in part by lack of physical activity. Here I am at the physical peak of my life and just sitting around for several consecutive days. What a waste. And even though lethargy is addictive, so is exercise. All it takes is that first plunge.

I donned a wool undershirt and some shorts, pulled a beanie over my ears and set out to loop the park. A short and rapid stride seemed to come naturally so I unleashed my legs and started off at a pretty quick pace. As I began to tire about two miles in I realized my mind was going through this endless cycle of dread. Dreading the pain of running, the hill coming up, a potential sugar high or low, the stiffness of cold hands, etc. How lame!!

Then I forced myself to smile. And just that simple act, a forced smile caused my gaze to rise from the ground in front of me to the nature around me. Instead of the cold on my hands I felt the warmth on my face. Instead of feeling the pain in my joints I felt the pleasure in my muscles. And as quickly as it took for those facial muscles to contract, life became good again.

Dailies:

12:01 -> 86 Love it! 80s! Took 2 Prandin w/cereal 120c. Went for a 4.5 mile run.
3:34 -> 93 Kinda sorta hoped to be lower, but the number's actually good. Took 3 Prandin w/black beans 67c, tortillas 33c, quinoa 60c, salsa 14c, kale 3c, seaweed 15c, apple sauce 15c. Later had a cookie 18c (good lord it was good!), apple 30c, another cookie (did I mention how good they were?). At 10:20 i felt LOW so had a Larabar 31c.
11:54 -> 103 Took 2 Prandin w/dinner: Mache salad 20c, chick pea/beet/carrot salad 45c, grapefruit 25c, 1 cup lentil soup 25c.
2:18 -> 199 A bit high, but I only just finished eating the grapefruit. I'll take 3 units of Lantus tonight because I ran today and have a busy day tomorrow and don't want to risk lows.

As a side note: I never felt any depression today. Thanks exercise!

Day 98

Blaisé Day

Today was a day spent in the wake of wonderful plans gone awry. I woke up to a phone call of cancelled plans, then again to the alarm I forgot to turn off, then again to a phone call confirming a doctors appointment. By the time I finally got out of bed I didn't feel rested at all, but couldn't stand wasting any more time under covers.

My day progressed with some small victories in the way of productivity. I visited a new place in Brooklyn, got a small amount of exercise, and had dinner with friends.

I'm in a bit of a slump right now. Part of it may be the thyroid problem, part of it... who knows. But there are definitely actions I can take to get out. For starters I need to start working out again, it always makes me feel better and makes both my insulin sensitivity and my sensitivity to the pill Prandin increase which means more food. Second I need to free my mind from those burdens I can including things like taxes, scheduling blood work, going to a dentist, researching apartments for May, etc. Finally, my general mood would probably improve if I started taking a little bit of bolus insulin more regularly (or at least started checking and measuring my spikes two hours after eating) because I'm spending a greater and greater part of the day slightly hungry.

I'll work towards all three of those tomorrow.

Dailies:

10:31 -> 94 Really quite a good number, although with three units the night before I had hoped for 80s. Took 2 Prandin with cereal 120c, then went to Greenwood cemetery and walked around. Around 1:00 I had a protein bar 27c.
2:15 -> 111 Not bad. Took 2 Prandin with salad 10c, eggplant 15c, hummus 25c, fries 60c, dips and tomatoes 20c at MIRIAM restaurant.
4:21 -> 80 Took 1 Prandin with carrots 21c, zucchini 14c and brussels sprouts 20c.
9:37 -> 102 Took 2 Prandin with black eyed peas w/kale 75c, beet/carrot/chick pea salad 30c, 18 crackers with avocado and sardines (yes, I broke the veganism) 60c. At 1:40 had a cookie 10c.
2:43 -> 156 This number upsets me a bit, although it's probably just a result of the 10c cookie. I only had about 2000 calories of carbs and probably no more than 2500 calories total. No wonder I'm hungry. Took 4 units of Lantus tonight, and had an apple 15c. I don't expect any nighttime lows.

Much of my evening was spent discussing the various merits of different nutritional techniques, indigenous diets, etc. Over the past three weeks I've often professed in person to being a "non-anal" vegan. There have occasionally been a bit of egg or some milk in prepared foods I've enjoyed. I've never had animal products on their own though until tonight. I had a very small amount (3 oz at most) of sardines. My veganism (or near-veganism) is for health not moral reasons and 3 oz of small cold-water fish will in no way undo the positive affects of my past 3 week diet. Regardless, tomorrow I'm back on the wagon.

Day 97

Hypothyroidism

The newest condition I've added to my collection. They came as part of a package deal. Get one, the other three are complimentary. Even though I haven't been officially diagnosed, my endocrinologist insinuated that there was little doubt when last we spoke on the phone. My TH levels were low, my thyroid was underproducing. The only thing keeping me from an official diagnosis is another set of blood tests and a $400 in person evaluation.

I have no doubt of my condition however, I've been feeling the symptoms daily for over a week. The symptoms in some ways are worse than the symptoms I experienced with diabetes... in some ways.

For over a week now my mood has been much like the weather in Hawaii. The morning starts perfectly, another day in paradise. The sun is bright, the water warm, people are outside, life is good. Then sometime around lunch usually, sometime a bit earlier, sometime a bit later, the clouds roll in consuming the whole archipelago in torrential rainfall, the sun disappears almost completely, and even though it only lasts an hour or less, and even though you know that the sun will return again, for that period in the darkness, you wonder how you've made it this far and how in hell you can possibly make it through to the other side of the storm.

And I know it's chemical. I can almost feel that it's chemical. I have no reasons to be in daily anguish. Frustrated from time to time, sure, maybe even bored, occasionally fatigued, angry at situations or peeved by circumstances, but weak and ill and despairing to the point of wanting to cry?? Nothing in my life adds up to those emotions, and yet they return almost daily, triggered by the most inconsequential of things.

I feel like a small business owner under the repressive finger of a mob run protection racket, harassed and assaulted daily, and spending the rest of the time living in fear of the next visit, haunted by the memory of the last. My will-power and body awareness serve like a broken shield and rusted armor against the attack. I'm reminded of what I long thought was the MacMillan crest, a man with broken sword fighting off his enemies (turns out the sword was only broken on our crest).

I've chosen to write from a place of happiness to be as fair as possible to my experience. Anything I write during my afflicted hour would sound more like a Sylvia Plath poem than an original of mine. But this shouldn't last. Later this week I'll have my second blood test and a week later I'll see the doctor for the inevitable results and will likely start medication that night or the following morning.

And a glorious side affect of the medication is increased energy! (or one of the symptoms it alleviates is lethargy) Which means that once I start taking thyroid hormones orally I'll also start running several times per week.

Dailies:

12:01 -> 105 Took 2 Prandin with cereal 120c (coconut yogurt is higher in carbs than soy), apple 35c, fake coffee 5c, peanuts and pumpkin seeds 6c. At 4:30 Larabar 27c. At 6:30 another 24c.
8:07 -> 71 Took 3 Prandin at 8:40 with dinner of brussel sprouts 20c, portabello mushroom 4c, celeriac 30c, cabbage 35c, quinoa 60c, yam 50c.
12:23 -> 245 Dang it! Waiting so long to eat made me super hungry although a mere 190 carbs shouldn't really be a problem for 3 pills. I decided to take 1 unit of Novolog so that i could finish the yam 50c and have a small salad 30c without going any higher. I also took 3 units of Lantus in anticipation of a weird day tomorrow. If I'm lower than 140 when next I check I'll have another mini snack. Feels good to be full, thank you bolus insulin.
2:21 -> 218 Well... still high, but going down a little. If this keeps up I may have to relearn my carb: insulin ratio. I guess I'll go to bed sans snack and trust that 3 units of Lantus will put me in the sweet spot come tomorrow early. Why early? Oh yeah... 'cause this playah is rollin' to the Hamptons tomorrow! Hollah!!! Although this idiot will rely solely on Prandin and fasting to keep my blood sugar in a good range until Tuesday night.


Day 96